Forgiveness
Three views
Mar 27th, 2009
Forgiveness - View #1
I am dreaming.
My only function is to remember I am dreaming, see the false as false and let it go.
I dreamed up the world because I believed I separated from God. This is false. But, believing I separated, I felt enormous guilt and anticipation of punishment from God. This was so frightening that I adopted the insane ego thought system and the person self concept.
The ego wrote situations and events into the script allowing me to project my fears onto others and then perceive them as unfairly attacking me. I judge them as guilty of hurting me and feel right in defending myself by attacking them back. But this is just my present choice to separate from others and prove my vulnerable self concept to myself.
Any judgment I make is false because I imagined/dreamed up a situation in which I don’t really know anything. Even my everyday ordering of thought is an attempt to select from reality and make up my own, hence usurping God’s function and a source of guilt for me.
So I watch my mind. As I become aware of ego thoughts, I deny them and instantly ask the Holy Spirit to decide for me. Each change of mind is a miracle. I follow the guidance of the Holt Spirit in all things, for these are the thoughts of God and His will for me is perfect happiness.
As my experience of miracles builds I am able to make the final choice, the acceptance of the Atonement, the complete recognition that the imagined separation never happened.
Forgiveness - View #2
The truth: Everything is happening for my good; happiness is my birthright.
Problem: Events and other people can make me unhappy.
Solution: Forgiveness
An event occurs: “X” says “Y” to me.
I feel upset.
It appears clear to me that I am upset because X said Y.
I stop and ask myself what I really want to come of this:
Do I want to be right about X being bad and stay unhappy in my wrong mind? No.
Or
Do I want peace of mind enough to be willing to choose again, to choose for the Holy Spirit’s Purpose of forgiveness? Yes.
I realize that such appearances are a trick of my ego mind. The cause of my upset is the meaning I am reading into the event, my (mis)perception of the event. I am seeing a symbolic out-picturing of my chaotic state of mind. I identify my judgmental thoughts causing my upset:
“X is wrong to say y.”
“X is bad.”
I trace back my thoughts, which are generated from my beliefs: Tracing back beliefs
"I am an innocent self in a body vulnerable to attack."
"X is different from me; X is attacking me."
These beliefs stem from my unconscious belief that I separated from God, about which I feel tremendous guilt and fear of punishment. When projected by my ego mind onto the screen of the world, it looks like X is attacking me. The Holy Spirit helps me see the truth:
The separation never happened.
Those beliefs are false. I am really spirit and my brother and I are the same.
Therefore those thoughts and perceptions were false.
What I thought happened did not happen.
I forgive myself and X for my mistake and let it go, asking the Holy Spirit to help me see the truth, X’s innocence.
I feel relief and genuine happiness. Everything is happening for my good.
Tags: Ego Forgiveness
Christ's vision
See with the heart
Mar 25th, 2009
You see the world that you have made, but you do not see yourself as the image maker. You cannot be saved from the world, but you can escape from its cause. This is what salvation means, for where is the world you see when its cause is gone? Vision already holds a replacement for everything you think you see now. Loveliness can light your images, and so transform them that you will love them, even though they were made of hate. For you will not be making them alone. W-23.4
“It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
…Christ's vision looks on everything with love. T-13.VIII.4
Christ's vision has one law. It does not look upon a body, and mistake it for the Son whom God created. It beholds a light beyond the body; an idea beyond what can be touched, a purity undimmed by errors, pitiful mistakes, and fearful thoughts of guilt from dreams of sin. It sees no separation. And it looks on everyone, on every circumstance, all happenings and all events, without the slightest fading of the light it sees. W-158.7
How can you estimate the worth of him who offers peace to you? What would you want except his offering? His worth has been established by his Father, and you will recognize it as you receive his Father's gift through him. What is in him will shine so brightly in your grateful vision that you will merely love him and be glad. T-20.V.4
Above all else I want to see. Recognizing that what I see reflects what I think I am, I realize that vision is my greatest need. The world I see attests to the fearful nature of the self-image I have made. If I would remember who I am, it is essential that I let this image of myself go. As it is replaced by truth, vision will surely be given me. And with this vision, I will look upon the world and on myself with charity and love. W-56.2
Christ's vision is a miracle. It comes from far beyond itself, for it reflects eternal love and the rebirth of love which never dies, but has been kept obscure. Christ's vision pictures Heaven, for it sees a world so like to Heaven that what God created perfect can be mirrored there. W-159.3
Today I let Christ's vision look upon
All things for me and judge them not, but give
Each one a miracle of love instead. W-349
What I Am Not
Mar 17th, 2009
I forget the beginning, but there is no question that I firmly identify with my ego mind, separate from God. The ego has a thought system that upholds its purpose, which is to prove that I separated from God. Everything I believe is rooted in a fearful past, which has no reality. The world is neutral and there is no causation in it. But I am impelled to ascribe meaning to it because I, the ego, fear God and think I am in competition with Him about who I am.
I make up the world I see by projecting images and feelings onto it. Forgetting I projected them, I see the prejudiced images and think I am just now determining what they mean. It is a dream that brings me nothing of value. I feel lonely and afraid, suffer, compete, defend myself, have conflicted relationships and die. I think that other people, God and mother nature are the cause, but it is all in my mind. I am doing this to myself. I am not the ego. The Holy Spirit is waiting to welcome me to the reality of God’s peace and joy now.
Tags: Ego
Krishnamurti on Love and Loneliness
What I think I am
Mar 14th, 2009
This brief introduction establishes the metaphysical context.
God is Spirit, Mind, Love. God created Christ, His Son, as extension. When the mad idea of separation occurred, instead of laughing it off, the mind of the Son considered the possibility for an instant. God prevented anything from really changing, but the Son’s powerful mind dreamed up a whole world and then fell asleep into it. In the dream the thought of separation, the ego, could play out its fantasy. The ego split into fragments, attached each fragment to a body and then wiped its memory clear.
Tracing Back a Belief
Instrument for Peace
Mar 02nd, 2009
The Instrument for Peace was made by David Hoffmeister to help Course students trace their lack of peace back to its singular cause in the mind so healing may occur.
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Thoughts on the thoughts I think I think
Forgiveness
Mar 01st, 2009
Today I have been aware that almost all of my thinking is wrong minded--based on the belief that I am a person, the subject who perceives. But what I think I perceive is not really there; it is merely my mental projection, just the out-picturing of an imagined past. I imagine causation in the world where there is none.
My wrong mind does this so I can judge and feel confirmed that I know. But I know nothing that is true, so I cannot judge. I think I am a separate person in a body. I am not separate in any way except for my present choice to hold on to the delusion that I am not what I am. I am spirit/mind. There is one unified Mind.
So I forgive. I do not attempt to write meaning on the world. Instead I just see the false thoughts and perceptions as false and let them go. I become still and open to the Holy Spirit for guidance to see my real thoughts. I ask, "What am I?" Perhaps I read the Course.
I am the holy Son of God Himself, spirit/mind, loved now and forever. The truth is now! I feel the love of God within me now. There is nothing I need do. There is only being joyful and at peace.
Peace, love and joy,
Andy
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