My True Identity
Returning though the mind
Posted by aplecompte on October 16th, 2009
I am the Son of God, able to create freely like my Father, with one exception. God created His Son. When I desired the impossible: to separate from God, to be different, to be autonomous, the only way I could give myself that seeming experience was to fall asleep and dream up the fantasy of being a person in a physical world.
This turns out to have been a lousy idea. I immediately felt massive guilt and fear. Instead of creating, I could now only project images and perceive them. Also, to be different from my Father’s eternity, my world was based on time and death. I took on the role of a reactive little fragment and turned running the show over to the fear-based ego thought system. What a mess.
But no harm done. Nothing changed. It was just a fantasy and it’s over. I am still God’s Son. There is only one little problem—I’m still asleep. My present choice to stay asleep takes the form of me believing I am a person in the world and valuing it. I do this because, in spite of having repressed it, I still believe I am guilty of sin and deserve punishment.
God placed the Holy Spirit in my mind so I could wake up when I was ready. I’m ready. A symbol of this is me finding A Course in Miracles, which spells out God’s Plan for salvation.
Now I just follow the Course. In part one of the Workbook, I practice undoing my false beliefs in perception, time, attack, idols, and my body as myself. I give up everything I thought I knew. In part two, I seek direct experience of the truth of God’s Love for me. I practice forgiveness—seeing the false as false and letting the Holy Spirit show me what to do. I see my brother in a new light, and that he and I are the same. Each direct glimpse of the truth is a miracle.
And I begin to remember my true identity:
I am God's Son, complete and healed and whole, shining in the reflection of His Love. In me is His creation sanctified and guaranteed eternal life. In me is love perfected, fear impossible, and joy established without opposite. I am the holy home of God Himself. I am the Heaven where His Love resides. I am His holy Sinlessness Itself, for in my purity abides His Own. W-pII.14. p.479
I am mind. I am God’s Son. I am Christ Mind.
